Sad

Lately it is a toss up how my day will go. Today I seem to be confronted with infertility and pregnancy. Tonight I feel really sad. When will I be ok with not being pregnant? When will the tears stop? I just adore Erma Bombeck, I have almost all of her books (still missing two I think) and in more than one book she mentions "celebrating no baby month". I can't even begin to imagine celebrating that....I'm sure there are many women out there that do, but it is something I will never celebrate. I know I am young, but I feel like after 9 years it just isn't going to happen. I want to be able to rejoice every single day in all that I am blessed with and not focus on the baby I don't have....I just don't know how to do it.