I have my "good" days and my "bad" days. I guess today is a hard day. Shortly after my last blog entry we found out that my husband has Polycystic Kidney Disease. From what we have been told because of the PKD we will never be able to conceive more children. If that news wasn't devastating enough we also found out that he won't be able to past the physical to be a foster parent again or to adopt. Our door has not only been closed, but slammed shut.
We are extremely blessed with our two girls, but my heart is in so much pain today. Our nursery will never have a baby. All the little boy things that I have collected will go unused in my hope chest. The airplane quilt that I worked on for the last year will never be wrapped around our son. I know God has a plan and in time I will be able to let go, but today I sit here and cry.
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Hi Kelly,
ReplyDeleteI looked for your blog after you had left a post on mine, and I saw that you had closed it. I am sorry that you are going through this. I can't imagine the pain that you must be in. I just said a prayer for you right now. This may be a horrible question to ask, but have you considered donor sperm? My husband always said that he wouldn't be able to handle it. When we got his sperm analysis, and thought that it might not be great, both of us completely opened up to the thought of a donor. But I do know that it is definitely not right for some people.
I pray that you will be able to see God's whole picture soon. Again, I am so sorry. My heart is breaking for you.
Hugs my friend! Donor sperm isn't an option for us.
ReplyDeleteThank you for your kind words and taking the time to write me, even with everything you are dealing with. Hugs!