I guess even though we will always be trying on our own, I never really had much hope it would happen. Just thinking about the possibility of another injection cycle has allowed my mind to dream again and that really scares me. With the first injection cycle I had convinced myself it would happen. I purchased some baby boy clothing, worked on a baby boy quilt, and thought of creative ways to tell family and friends...I can't do that again. I want to have faith it can happen, but I don't want to go that far again. First we have to wait and see what happens on Tuesday...we may not even be able to go another cycle if the count isn't better.
Laus Deo!
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Wishing you the best of luck. I understand what you're saying...like a defense mechanism. Such a hard thing but I hope you'll have good reason to do all of those things again soon!!
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Hang onto hope in general, but temper it however works best for you. You have to take care of yourself before you can worry about anything else...
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The IF road is so so difficult. I do hope it will work out for you, whichever way you decide to go. As you say, you are blessed with two miracles, there is no reason why you cannot have a third one soon, you know it can happen for you. Wishing you love and happiness. Fran
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