More than I can handle

I belong to a homeschooling yahoo group where I rarely read all the posts, but tonight I made the mistake of reading the one that I shouldn't. She is a new member to the group, so I haven't met her yet (the group is a local group). I'm not judging her and I am praying for her. She asked for prayers tonight because she is pregnant and doesn't want to be. She apparently has 3 children all under the age of 5 and now one on the way. This just breaks my heart for so many reasons. I am sitting here with arms open, ready to receive the blessing of another child and God has chosen someone who doesn't even want the blessing. I don't understand, I know I will never understand, but this just breaks my heart. I am giving myself shots for a chance to have the blessing she has. I would trade all my worldly possessions to have another child in my life. I'm sorry, but this was just too much for me to read today.